"Your aloofness is terrifying" Your groggy voice snaps me out of my thoughts, and I turn around to look. I'm taken aback: your eyes are glistening in the dark. I turn back around and take another drag. "What are you talking about?" The bed creaks as you sit up and scoot over to dangle your… Continue reading I Only Forget
I plunged deep into dark waters today, thirsty waters threatening to swallow me whole. Each droplet mocking my intense vulnerability, faint whispers tantalizing my numbed senses. Suffocating thoughts, overflowing emotions, bottomless pits and blank, dark eyes staring. They haunt my waking hours, those empty gazes; while sleep is accompanied by the greatest traitor of all:… Continue reading Haunted.
I've survived on memories far too long, And I've only had bad times to look back on. Every now and then, I struggle with words Stammering with the things that need to be said. I won't even admit to myself My constant need to be heard Not by those who'd just hold my hand, But… Continue reading Hurting, Healing.
What do you see when you look at me? Sagging shoulders, or my fairly convincing attempt at a smile? Sunken eyes, or tired feet that have wandered aimlessly countless miles? I'm exhausted, yes. But I'm not ready to go back yet. Not ready to go back to the place I called home, where every nook… Continue reading Evanescent
If someone were to ask me, what is the single most beautiful thought you've ever had? I'd speak of quiet moments spent in the darker corners when I'd smile to myself just at the thought of your gap-toothed, goofy grin. I'd think about how the damn world stopped spinning, everything else became a blur and… Continue reading The Most Beautiful Thought
You were all that sparkled when darkness settled A reminder of everything that remains true My world is little, without you it's insignificant Your poetry is all that I breathe Through your poetry, I forever grew Your blood-curdling screams still echo in my head, The ghost of your caresses still console me You still haunt… Continue reading Crumbling.
June 25, 2017 Packed my bags, said no goodbyes. Just in time for the night's last train. Tried escaping what couldn't be escaped, But his eyes pulled me back in again. Like dried-up roses I'm withering. My petals giving up on me, one at a time. Don't look back, they'll say, But look back anyway.… Continue reading No Goodbyes
In a room of shattered mirrors Reflecting scattered memories, I wish I could cry. I can barely just visualize my name In your scrawny, almost indecipherable handwriting Only, I don't quite remember what your handwriting looks like. Still nibbling off of the little bit of yourself You gave me, My hunger can remain satiated… Continue reading Linger
It's uncanny how much your eyes remind me of the sea. Not the blue waters on a calm day, no. Your eyes hold the chaos of fierce, near-black waters on stormy nights at sea. These stormy eyes of yours, they bring me peace. You were like the ocean, too. You'd take one step forward and… Continue reading Seasick
In a parallel universe, everything that you've ever dreamt of is happening. Right at this instant. You're as happy as you imagined you'd be, probably happier. Your eyes sparkle brighter than ever, your laugh is livelier than ever. Right at THIS instant, you're so happy you've forgotten what hurting feels like. Can you picture… Continue reading We Don’t Belong.